I feel I am an individual. You probably feel the same or have felt it in the past. Everybody I have asked has, at times very intensely, at times as a background vibration, had this perception. I am myself, the good and the bad, the light and the shadow, what I like and show, what I condemn and hide. I am all of that.
This is a true and ultimate....[read more...]
Being present is a powerful experience but is not, unfortunately, sufficient in most cases to stop the superego’s attacks and to eradicate this coercive mechanism. The judge is, fundamentally, aggressive and oppressive and for years this fear of being attacked has forced us to direct our rage against our impulses. These impulses (called the Id in Freudian terminology) are been driven back into the unconscious, resulting in repression of our vitality. When we make developing our defence from the superego the centre of the work on ourselves, the....[read more...]
In order for us to turn against the superego, the ego needs to have two qualities above all others: will and strength. Will gives us a strong determination and commitment to want to know ourselves, together with the ability to support ourselves during the long journey of self-discovery.It also gives us the confidence that is necessary to look the monster in the eyes, continuing to remain present in the moment, instead of engaging our attention in compulsive dynamics with the superego. The will supports our desire for freedom and enables us to reject....[read more...]
Uncovering the Inner Judge
There isn’t a moment in our waking hours that the inner judge is not present. We are not aware of it for the very simple reason that around age seven or eight the controller went completely underground, in hiding in our unconscious and functioning from there. The disguise is so perfect that we have completely forgotten we can exist without self-judgement and we have become utterly used to the continuous noise of our inner dialog. This dialog....[read more...]
From feeling/attention to thinking/imagination
The imperative in this case is: Move away from the present!
This is best done by moving one’s attention away from the sensory and emotional aspects of the experience in hand at that moment.
You might have noticed how guilt is initially experienced as an often-overwhelming constellation of many different sensory and emotional elements and how, in the blink of an eye, to avoid the feeling of “not being in control”, our tendency is to break connection with the sensory....[read more...]
Most people believe guilt is an emotion. However, guilt is a much more complex phenomena as it involves thought patterns, beliefs, concepts, emotions and physical sensations. Depending on the structure of our personality, we will have a particular way of experiencing guilt: for some people it is fundamentally a mental activity, a run of thoughts and contrasting points of view, for others it is a feeling of being crushed, associated with despair, helplessness, unworthiness, for others it is a heavy mantel that freezes the body, either....[read more...]
Most people believe and hope that a final moment exists when everything is done, concluded, when only light is left, when integration is complete and perfect.
This hope prevents them the living of THIS moment and the reality of light/shadow.
“A clinical psychiatrist questioned Suzuki Roshi about consciousness. “I don’t know anything about consciousness,” Suzuki said. “I just try to teach my students how to hear the birds sing.”
When we let go....[read more...]
What does it mean to become an adult? What does it mean to mature emotionally?
In my personal experience everything has been a big mess until I didn’t realize experientially:
1. That there was a fundamental difference between emotions and feelings. That emotions are feelings locked in time and charged with values, judgments, beliefs,habits and, more than anything else, attachment. Emoting then has nothing to do with the present but it is rather a reactivity that repeats acquired patterns.
2. That I had learnt to feel from the feminine....[read more...]
This blog is the first of a new series and you are invited to actively participate.
Lets get clear! Lets throw down from the altars the idols of the past and the idealizations of a spirituality of renunciation, a spirituality stuck on transcendence and far away from daily life. Its time is past! What is the sense today of sitting under a tree deep into one’s own realization while ignoring life, affects, challenges, creativity and evolutionary responsibility?
My personal experience, my life as an Osho’s disciple, the very longing of my....[read more...]
1. Enlightenment doesn’t exist but for the ego believing in its own ignorance. Only in personality exists the conviction that there is something deeply wrong in ourselves and that therefore we need to change. This conviction is so....[read more...]
It’s now more that ten years that I teach how to change our relationship with the Inner Judge.
Thousands of people have passed through my courses and those facilitated by Karuna, Kapil and Rani, and one thing is clear: what we teach does work.
But, does it work for everybody?
No, it doesn’t work for all the people and it does work in different ways too.
What then makes the difference? What makes the teaching and the understanding efficient for some and not for others? What makes it a dead weight for some....[read more...]
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"The way Avikal teaches is compassionate, joyful and humorous, holding me accountable in a firm and warm manner. I feel changed, renewed, and privileged to have been a participant in his programs and teachings."
"Avikal's approach has taken us on a journey where we have all experienced a process of growing to meet each new challenge."
Notes on The Inner Judge